the only progress i made today was not buying binge food

i just ate the shit we already had at home

its so frustrating

i cant stop

No more binging and purging
no more excuses
no more telling myself ill stop tomorow

im really doing it this time

here are some reasons:
-money: i waste over 20 dollars a week on binge food alone
-health: i feel like im going to pass out half the time, im always freezing, my chest hurts when i go up the stairs... i really want to feel better, plus i know this disorder can kill me
-boyfriend: he's more worried than i am
-appearance: my teeth and hair are getting bad and i know my skin could clear up if i stopped
-time: i never seem to finish my homework or get anything done since im always over the toilet purging
-overall im just sick of it

i know ill need to remind myself of all that tomorow...

please just let me get better this time